Chapter Fifty-Five – Here We Go Again

Boateng and I had grown closer since things with Sly fell through but it isn’t in the way you’d think. He was just easy to talk to. Plus, we’d been through a lot together and it definitely helped that he hated Sly’s guts even before the breakup.

The time we’d spent together had remolded our friendship and made it stronger. As it turns out, Sly had been the weapon fashioned against us and so now with him out of the way, we could fix things. Before school had reopened, we’d had an honest conversation and talked about everything.

I’m feeling sentimental today so I will tell you about it.

Boateng had come over to visit me at home. We had Carl’s concert the next day but we’d figured it’d be cool if we hanged out before then. We’d started off with the typical “how are you?”, “oh, I feel like shit because Sly had his graduation party and didn’t invite me but he had the audacity to wear the suit I had picked out for him. I hate him so much. I am so angry”. You know, the usual.

“Do you think you guys can work things out. Would you take him back if he asked you?” Boateng asked earnestly.

“To be honest, I don’t know. Obviously, I still like him. My question though is, would you want me to?”

Boateng thought about that for a second.

“Since we are being honest, I still like you but I think I like our friendship more. I want you to be happy always. If Sly is what makes you happy then as much as I hate him, I wouldn’t mind. But then again he acted really badly just breaking up with you out of the blue like that so I wouldn’t want you to go back to him and get hurt again.”

I was quiet.

“You acted really badly too but I forgave you. For a while, I kind of blamed you for the breakup. I mean, you were really shitty, Boateng. You never supported my relationship and it really hurt me.”

“I can admit that I messed up and I promise to be better if you enter another relationship.”

“Do you think we could? I mean, you and me in a relationship? It almost sounds like a disaster.”

“I’d like to think that’s why we are here today. I always liked you but was too much of a train wreck to realize it and you liked me too but you knew that I wasn’t wise enough to see it through. So, we’ve both settled on just being friends and dancing around things.”

“What makes you think I liked you too?” I asked defensively.

Boateng gave me a look. “Did you not?”

“I mean, I did picture us together from time to time but I can’t say I was crazy about you like that.”

He chuckled.

“Do you still picture us together sometimes?”

“Would you want me to?”

“I picture us together. I think that someway somehow, we could actually work. Is that weird?”

“No, but I can’t picture myself with anyone right now. I just got my heart broken. Let’s promise each other something. We will always be supportive of each other’s relationships and if we turn forty and are still not married, we marry each other.”

“I think I like that plan” Boateng chirped. We shook on it.

Now, fast forward to today, seeing that girl was so unnerving. I know Boateng. He’s definitely going to like her and I know that girl, she’s definitely going to like him too, and what then?

No, I don’t like Boateng. I can’t like him because I just broke up with Sly. Three months is not a long enough time to like someone else. I really don’t want to be that girl. I can’t.

I can already tell that this is about to be one hell of a semester.